A few weeks ago, I set out to make dipped tallow candles. I had everything worked out in my head, and thought I knew exactly how this was going to go.
The reality wasn’t quite so pretty however. I ended up spending about two hours trying to get my tallow to just the right temperature so that each dip of my candle wick would result in another layer of tallow.
The end result was not only not as pretty as I had pictured, it was downright ugly!
I was disappointed at first – I had really had my heart set on these dipped candles – but when I finally conceded defeat and switched gears to the more traditional candle-in-a-jar method, the results ended up being quite beautiful, and I was so happy with the results, that I even posted a tutorial on How to Make Homemade Candles.
I realized that I hadn’t really thought things through when I first came to this project. What would I do with a dipped candle? I didn’t have any candle holders, so burning it would have been a problem.
Unfortunately, my motivation stemmed from nothing more than bragging rights. I wanted to have this rather unusual and slightly complicated project under my belt.
While there’s nothing wrong with doing a project for the satisfaction of having done it, that’s not always a good enough reason.
But the real lesson I took away from this fiasco is something that has been taking me a long time to learn.
Things don’t always go according to plan. But that’s okay! Those “failures” or deviations, often turn into something better than we could ever imagine.
This is just one more very small lesson in a series of lesson that I believe the Lord is using to teach me to let go, and roll with the punches so that he can put His plan in place.
So many times, I get frustrated when things don’t go the way I want them to. Or when I think they won’t. Like that time I thought we were going to be living in a camper when our first baby was born. I was so upset I was going crazy. But God miraculously provided the perfect house for us.
With experiences like that, you’d think that I’d be full of trust, but it turns out, I’m not as smart as I thought I was. But I am learning. That’s what’s important, right?